Unworthy.

I feel like a dirty rag. I can't even sleep because I feel so unworthy. Why does God love me? I screw up more than I should. I say things, I think things, I listen to things, I do things that aren't pleasing to Him on a daily basis and He still loves me. I almost get mad at Him for loving me so much. Is this crazy? I know He sent His son to die on a cross for all the sins I'll ever commit in my lifetime but I just don't understand how someone could be so forgiving and gentle. I guess it's because Jesus isn't a "someone." He's the Son of God. He puts me in my place when I get out of hand. He convicts me when I ignore His voice. He calls me out when I give Satan room to think in my thoughts. He picks me up when I fall flat on my face. He wipes away my tears when I secretely cry at night. He tucks me in when I feel alone. He takes my hand when I feel lost. He makes me laugh when things get stressful. He holds my heart when someone/thing breaks it. He gives me strength when I am weak. He gives me hope when I have none. He shows  me His love when even I don't understand why. He wipes my slate clean when I'm doubtful. He makes me white as snow when I am feeling like a dirty rag. I guess that's why He loves me. Simply because He just loves me. And I don't need to look too far into it. God's love is unexplainable, uncomprehendable, unimaginable and all of the above. Accept the fact that Jesus Christ is crazy about you and go to bed. Okay goodnight.

Prayer Is Powerful.

Prayer is a powerful thing,
it takes our hand so we can sing
praises to the One above,
miracles rain down on us.
I hear the children call my name,
fatherless, abandoned all the same.
I'm here to show them my Father's love,
let them know it's up to us
to take the time, kneel down and pray,
ask Him in our hearts to stay.
Jesus holds my heart in His hands,
His presence makes it hard to stand.
My love for Him is an overflowing stream,
in my soul He's placed a dream.

Something worth waiting for.

Tonight my pastor spoke about the wise and the foolish. He spoke on how the wise were patient and prepared as they waited for their Bridgroom to return to His Bride. As I meditated on the sermon, God spoke something significant to my heart. He simply said, "Taylor, I don't put you through seasons of waiting because I don't know what else to do with you. I have something so magnificent at the end of each specific season for you. Stay faithful to me and I will always be faithful to you. I wouldn't give you seasons of waiting if there wasn't something worth waiting for at the end of the tunnel." Wow! That is so beautiful and assuring. I get so impatient with God sometimes. Especially in the area of relationships. But lately, He has given me such peace about everything, including finding a "boyfriend." I know that when the time is ripe and I am ready, He will send me the right guy. I need to stop searching and start seeking my Lover more and more each day. He is more than enough.