Proverbs 3:5

 "A woman’s heart plans her way, but the Lord directs her steps.” Proverbs 16:9

Lord, today I come to you with a heart full of longing. A heart full of wonder and questions that have been arousing in my mind for weeks now. Usually I have little misfits about my non-dating life, but this one has lasted 6 weeks to long. It's been months. And It's driving me crazy. I wake up and I think about my future husband. I look at my lonely phone that doesn't recieve cute little text; and I think about my future husband. I spend Friday nights alone and I think about my future husband. I go to church on Sundays by myself and think about my Future Husband. I spend Thanksgiving with my family and think about my future husband. I sit outside during a storm and I think about my future husband. I go to sleep thinking about my future husband. I want him. I love him. I need him. Where is he? I know that you are the God of perfect timing. But my clock does not match up with yours yet I know that it should. Please God, settle my heart. Give me a sense of your everlasting peace. I need comfort. I trust in you, I really do... I just feel like I've been obediant to Your will for so long and I'm not getting anything in return... But I know I will.. I've been so pure in my singleness when my sweet husband comes into my life, you are going to bless our relationship so much. THAT is what keeps me going and keeps me waiting. Gal 6:9 is what I'm going to do until you bring him into my life. I know you are molding my heart and His so that when we do meet, they will fit perfectly together. So just keep building up our relationship and i'll just keep trusting you. Eventhough it's really hard.

To my Future Husband:
Wherever you are, I love you. My heart aches to meet you and get to know everything about you. You are seriously going to be wonderful.. I can't even fathom how handsome & perfect you are going to be for me :) I'm so excited.... I pray for you all the time.. that God would not only be molding my heart to meet you but that He would be molding your heart for mine as well. I know He is. I bet you are such a Man of God. I can't wait to pray together. For you to pray over me. It's going to be beautiful. We're going to be so blessed by our Father for our patience. I wonder if you have stayed single and pure for me as I have for you? Or if you have dated a lot of girls? If so, I'm jealous of all of those girls. Whenever you find me, I might have to punch every one of them for taking a piece of my husband. :)

I love you,
Your lovely wife!

Seasons of Change.

October came and went so fast
My life was fine, my friends were vast.
The wind and leaves so swift and strong,
must've swept my friends up wrong.
They started doing things not right,
I tried to pray and hang on tight.
Then I heard a sweet voice say,
"Love and let them go, My Tay."
I've never been so hurt and broken,
for my friends who once were tokens.
I didn't want to leave them be,
but my heart played a different melody.
So here I stand in Novembers Hand,
Trusting in my Father's great Plan.